I don't know whether I should be angling, whether I'm subconsciously angling, whether I've got a crush on her or whether this is friendship + physical attraction. I don't know that I can keep a poker face, or whether I need to. I don't know why I'm feeling down and still down when I see her, although I look forward to seeing her. I don't know that I'm not turning into annoying company, and I don't know whether I shouldn't be pursuing somebody else instead. I don't know whether to act before she moves away, or whether it's a blessing that she's going away because as I said I don't know in what way I like her. I know I'm not a mess, but I'm preoccupied, and I don't know how this will progress.
Ugh. Slash rant. |
