Thanks for the hug! No, I won't loose my will to live - or at least it seems like that. Yet, once I was so depressed I don't know what would have happened, if a good friend of mine, who really had the ability to understand me, would not have listened to me patiently at around 03:30 a.m.
But somehow I seem to be damned to accept the pain. It sure sounds crazy, but I have never been able to end my life by force - although I couldn't see the meaning of it.
Still there's that one occasion that leaves me puzzled: If that friend of mine, the only one capable of understanding my problems would've hung up that night - I think I might not be typing this right now... |
