Been walking around at work all day ("luckily" I live where I work--apartment complex, doing maintenance), around three square blocks, in sub-freezing temperatures, because Saturday night my transmission decided to do its best imitation of a blender full of rocks. The cost of replacement of the transmission will somewhat exceed the value of the car were it in ideal condition otherwise, which it isn't. I have two more payday loans to try to pay off, and two new debt collectors I'd never heard from before decided to gang up on me today at work for things I thought I had paid off long ago. I haven't figured my income tax yet, but I'm sure, thanks to some creative W-4'ing, I'll end up owing the gov't big, despite making something just a hair above subsistence level wages. No savings, due to trying to fix a few old debts which are now "almost" done with. No credit, for the same reasons. Now, no car (I haven't had one for a few years, as I've been sharing my mom's car--that's the one that's crapped out) and my mom's living with me, due to similar debt problems and she's been trying to work parttime gigs due to being just about at retirement age, AKA the age where no one wants to hire her full time anymore, mostly jobs that end up costing us more than she brings in for the effort, so I also end up bearing the brunt of food and utilities here. "Luckily" the apartment I live in counts as part of my salary, so I have a place to live, but should I get fired or quit I'll have three days to find a new place to live for me and mom. I haven't had a day in the past few weeks where I didn't come home reeking of stale water and some kind of corrosion or sewage backup or mold or the like, which smells mingle and linger for days regardless of the number of baths I take, which all add to my "love" of this job SOOOOO much. So, in essence, there's no way to win, no chance of moving up job-wise, residence-wise, social-life-wise, dating-wise (basically non-existent for about twelve years now), savings-wise or hope-wise.
How's your day been?
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