...my apologies. I didn't intend that.

Anyway, the cat is not exactly out of the bag for my mother. She knows it's cancer, but she believes it's treatable, and that all the radiation and chemo will end up with N being healthy again. She will continue to believe that, unless we force the truth into her head, which is something we won't do, because it will probably drive her over the edge again. Believe me it's hard for me not to be honest with her, as I've never kept secrets from my mom, and it's hard to create such a habit now.

Beating my sister E... heh... there's a nice fantasy. It's been many a time that I wanted to wash the nonsense out of her head by opening it up and throwing its content away. However, she does help my sister N a lot by taking her to the hospital and cleaning and doing her laundry and so on. And she even offered to transfer some money regularly into N's bank account, which I stopped her from doing because I know she has her own problems. That's the problem - she is not all bad, and she is helpful, and if I beat her up - assuming that I could ever bring myself to be violent - I'd just be making things worse by making her part of the puzzle wobble.

I really hate having all my marbles... And I need to sort this one out sensibly. At least I got my mother to talk to her therapist about this.