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Life in general. | by caffine-iv | 2006-11-19 12:55:59 |
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by Eco |
2002-07-24 07:36:52 |
That's a lot to process.
I hope this rant will make sense... *g*
I can relate to some of what you've written. I did feel "on the edge" most through school because I never really 'fit in' and it wasn't until I went to "university" (the swedish version of it) that I started meeting like-minded people.
High school (the equivalent of) felt mostly dull. I always knew what subjects I'd do well in and endulged in things that gave me a challenge. The math, english etc was never really a problem, but the arts and crafts were. I also had few but loyal friends who were also somewhat on the social edge, which was a good thing.
I had a rather childish mind for some time aswell, and still insist on having a strange sense of humour (happily blaming my happy childhood, getting my own house at the age of 5 and growing up next to a cemetery for parts of it. The house was ofcourse a playhouse..)
I've found that the only thing that really works in order to change things for the better is to let yourself BE yourself and not try to conform to other standards. (Laws and Societal general rules like waiting in line at the supermarket aside.)
After I found my way more I also found myself surrounded by the kind of people I really always wished I could be around. Although at earklier times so misguided and frantically (mentally atleast) searching that I had really lost touch with seeing people for who they are and instead only seeing what I was looking for in them, sometimes even creating qualities instead of discovering them.
I also consider myself lucky that I have so much going for me. A family that loves me, friends, a now 3-year relationship, an interesting job and colleagues who appreciate me for not only what I do but for who I am... (Lucky lucky lucky...)
Ofcourse none of this came along, or atleast I didn't realise it, until after I had found and accepted the Me I was intended to be and started being that Me so people could actually see it and start judging my by it, istead of whatever image I was showing or trying to display at the time.
There were certainlly bad times aswell, there have been some depressive spells and there have been broken hearts, but in the end, after letting myself just be myself and doing what I want/need, accepting my limitations and so on, it's all been worth it. Every last ounce of pain, every last second of loneliness and every last tear. They have all been there in order for Me to be Me.
School is always a bad growing-ground for individuality and anyone who does not conform with everyone else Will feel left out, or play games all through school just to fit in. Those that do fit in will generally have a more difficult time after it is all over.
I also recognise a lot of it in my little brother. He shared a lot of of the feelings you've described all through first year to junior high, but is doing better in high school (the equivalent of) now that he has a more personal program and is allowed more choice to do what he has an interest in.
We still don't know where he will end up though but we love him to pieces and always do everything we can to make him proud and strong in himself because that makes it easier to deal with the rest of the world. (He also has a slite version of a letter-damage. DAMP to be exact. Not a big one, but it does impede his social skills and attention span. Not that I'm saying any of that is relevant to you, just that the results of it are.)
My conclusion after all this:
Difference is Not a bad thing, but can be percieved as such while one is expected to start "fitting into" the society.
One thing I've learned during my growing up is that a difference can be as much a strength as it can be a weakness. It's all a matter of looking at it in the right light. |
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